I will like to lie that I have no qualms cutting that ‘friend’ of mine off from my life but that would be a blatant lie. It hurts… It fucking hurts so much okay.
So I’ve blocked her on Whatsapp, deleted her phone number and today I deleted her off from my Facebook. I do not want to be a second choice, I do not want to be a spare tire.
The anger turned into disappointment which eventually turned into second-guessing…myself. Something must be fucking wrong with me to meet such shitty people in my life. I just want to have friends you know…
Talked to my ex-coworker about it last night. We are the same kind you know. The exact same weirdos whom I’d never expect to exist.
Up till this date, I haven’t or rather, I do not have the guts to admit that she is my friend because:
1) I know how is she like because we are two of a kind. We cannot fucking deal with disappointments.
2) I can never meet up to her expectations as her friend.
3) We are heartless but we feel so much. We have no qualms cutting people off from our lives if they should fail us.
To be honest, I am afraid… I am so afraid of humans and their intentions… I have dealt with so many heartbreaking truths. I know blood is not thicker than water. I fucking know because I’ve experienced it first hand. Nothing can be thicker than money.
I don’t really know what to expect from humans anymore…
this nonsensical acquaintance of mine whom cheated me of my $550 turned up 2.5 hours late with her new boyfriend. I asked her for a time to meet, to which she replied ‘6:30 pm’ and guess what? She reached at 9:10 pm and she even has the cheek to bring along her new boyfriend, Max. WHAT THE FUCK??? She didn’t tell me she is bringing her new bf along.
And all the fucking nonsensical bullshit excuses which she gave:
- That she was having dinner (wasn’t she the one who said that we are meeting at 6 pm??)
- That she couldn’t get through my phone (I was having a 6 mins call. After that she texted me and I replied but did she came over immediately after her text at 7:45 pm? NO. She reached at 9:10 pm)
- That she reached the wrong place (I told her the location. Starbucks at Terminal One, Level One, next to arrival hall. She went to Pasta de Waraku at Terminal 2 and asked me to go up to meet her. I am already seated at Starbucks with my belongings and laptop. I told her that she went to the wrong terminal. She is at Terminal 2 instead of Terminal 1 and she replied ‘here put T1’ which I assumed she meant that the signboard states that she is at T1 instead of T2.)
- That she wasn’t late on purpose (how could she not be late on purpose??? She was the one who fixed the meeting time, she knows she is late but still slowly took her own sweet time. ‘Not on purpose’ meant that she faced a CRISIS, an EMERGENCY or terrible traffic jam which I know it wasn’t because of all those reasons.)
SERIOUSLY??? How could she be a mom to 2 young girls. What sort of values is she gonna teach them???
Her new bf is more important than her friend of 8 years???
I’m giving up on her. Gonna block her on whatsapp and delete her number. Gonna delete her off from FB. I don’t need such bullshit people in my life. People who are not sincere, who constantly changes boyfriends, who takes me for granted, who treats me like an ATM. FUCK YOU UPSIDE DOWN MAN!